my little friend :D

Meet my little friend-Sheayen. We called her ayen. She and her family lives besides our house and our house is like her extended home. She is like my own little sister and my parents treated her like their own grandchild. How time really flies! I can’t believe that she just turned four this year. We saw her growing up and she amazes us today the way she thinks and reasons. Just like other bibo kids, she always showcases her talents to our family. Besides of singing and dancing, she looooooves to eat! She is part of the samahang bata-na-napagiwanan-sa-kusina. hahahah. This kid really brings joy and laughter to our house.

And this is what we do when boredom strikes…

I do love kids. And no doubt that my future ministry will involve kids! :)

Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."-Matthew 19:14

"I am a Christian"

When I say I am a Christian — by Maya Angelou

When I say ... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say ... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say ... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say ... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say ... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say ... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say ... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow

woman's stuff O_o

I received this forwarded email from a sister-in-Christ. :)
Thanks cess for sharing this one!

What makes me weak? My fears.....

What makes me whole? My God.

What keeps me standing? My faith.

What makes me compassionate? My selflessness.

What makes me honest? My integrity.

What sustains my mind? My quest for knowledge.

What teaches me all lessons? My mistakes.

What lift's my head high? My pride, not arrogance.

What if I can't go on? Not an option.

What makes me victorious? My courage to climb.

What makes me competent? My confidence .

What makes me sensual? My insatiable essence.

What makes me beautiful? My everything.

What makes me a woman? My heart .

Who says I need love? I do.

What empowers me? My God & Me.

Who am I? I AM A PROUD WOMAN!

For all the ladies out there, STAY BEAUTIFUL inside and out! :)

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. -Proverbs 31:30

for God's glory!

Whew! It’s been almost 4 months since I worked as a volunteer nurse at a 35-bed capacity hospital near our village. I still vividly remember that one year ago I’ve been busy preparing for my board exam. I really missed those days where life was not as complicated compare today. There were a lot of people who asked me why I took up Nursing. They asked this question a hundred times since this course is really popular. To be honest, I really don’t know. Today, it is still in demand but not on my own country. If you will answer to the question why you took up nursing because of humanitarian purposes, people would not believe in you. Oh well, I can’t blame them if they perceive nurses as servants after money.

Hospitals today required us to be trained as a volunteer nurse before you can become a staff nurse and some of them have training fees. Because of the “backer” system here in the Philippines and the tremendous supply of nurses, it’s really tough to get a job at the hospitals even volunteer jobs. That’s the reason why many of them pursue jobs at the call center industry. It’s frustrating, right? *sigh*

I thought that after receiving my college diploma and get my license, everything will turn out good. But there is really no easy way in climbing the peak of the mountain. There are a lot of rocky roads that registered nurses have to face including me! Here are some: No income as a volunteer nurse (free meal only or none at all for some hospitals), there are a lot of seminars and training required for us to attend before applying in a hospital (so what for is our 4-yrs stay in college?..hmp!), no assurance to be hired as a staff nurse (not until someone will resign or you have a backer) and so on and so forth. But God comforted me with His words found at Psalm 46:10—Be still, and know that I am God.

In the middle of trials, I have two options as what my senior pastor used to say. It’s either to be bitter or better. So I chose to be BETTER. My experiences today in the hospital is still a blessing indeed. I just want to enjoy every moment as a nurse and be the nurse that God wants me to be. :)

I summed up the things I gained…


*experiences
-first time to have a graveyard duty (11pm to 7am)
-straight duty (graveyard till the morning shift)
-cute little angels at the ward (pedia patients.. some were uber duper naughty and I remember that one boy used to call me “monkey girl!”.. err :l toxic ang swero nila kasi galaw sila ng galaw but still they are precious kids)
-PGH patients (please go home patients :)) bantay sarado baka makatakas, d pa bayad..haha)
-dead-on-arrival cases (DOA) at the ER (it helps me to appreciate my life more and other lives as well. And it’s a constant reminder from God that I need to share His love and grace to others before its too late)
-emergency and a not-so emergency cases (nerve-wracking..hahah!)
-a sincere smile and simple “thank you” from my patients and their relatives (it really makes my duty worth it)
-demanding patients or their companions (yay! it helps me to become more patient..hehe)


*skills (somehow)
-prioritization
-hmm.. i don’t want to include medical terms here but I’m pretty sure that I’m more confident now in dealing with my patients compare when I was a student nurse.


*FRIENDS
-IRclub
-bonding moments
-laugh/food trips
-pictorial sessions




My realizations these days:
**God is my backer . I know that in His time, I’ll be able to work in another hospital that will provide me an opportunity to grow in my field and will offer a good compensation.
**God is my boss. BAWAL TAMAD! Haha :)

So whatever is happening in my career, I want to use it FOR GOD’S GLORY!

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.
-Psalm 37:4
"My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,' says the Lord.'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways,And My thoughts than your thoughts."
-Isaiah 55:8-9

i'm God's princess :)

"Do not stir up nor awaken love until it pleases."
-Song of Songs 8:4

hmm.. I can't sleep. Dunno why.. it is because of the incident happened at the church or the story told by my friend?

I keep reminding myself nowadays that if it is God's will, it will happen! :)
My heart's prayer is that God will give me the patience to wait for my God's best and He will give me wisdom to counsel my friend/s regarding heart issues. By His Spirit, I will know what to say and what not to say.

I'm currently reading "What to do until love finds you". I'll promise that I will share the highlights of this book at my blogs. It will be coming soon.. hehe. Allow me to finish it before the month ends. ukie?!:)

I'm God's PRINCESS.
I'm His child.
I'll keep trusting Him for my PRINCE. :)

Love God, Love People

It hurts.. I don't know why there are some people as if they existed just to pull you down, down and down.. and they'll never stop hurting you. But you know what hurts more? If those people are the people you're really close with.

People will hurt, annoy and disappoint you in some point of our lives. But whenever I think of God's grace, I realized that these people needs grace too. Grace is God showing His love to you even though you don't deserve it.

Aside from the physical wounds, God can heal heartaches.
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
—Psalm 147:3

I can't change them but God can. What I can do is to show them the love and grace that I have received from Him.

But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you (Luke 6:27-28).

What if you're enemies didn't apologize?

Let us follow Jesus' example: Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing (Luke 23:34).

And let us not be carried away by our emotions easily because maybe we just misinterpret that person too. That person might be on a personal crisis, exhausted, busy and distracted. These past few days, I can say that I'm getting 'manhid' na because what my friend finds offending from someone else's words that was being thrown to me.. deadma lang sa akin..d ko na kasi pansin e..hehe.. :D

The reason behind it...
Love God, Love People.
It's love month anyway. :)
But even if its not the season of hearts,lets love in every season. ("v")

white flag

Thursday is my 2nd favorite day of the week. (next to sunday) :)

I'm off to duty every thursday and my typical thursday is rest, rest and rest. I don't know for today why all of a sudden I want to start making blogs. Maybe because I've read a lot of blogs and was inspired to have my own or maybe I was a frustrated writer before. I remembered that I want to be a writer in my school's newspaper when I was in highschool. Guess what happened? I failed. My teacher disapproved the articles I submitted. Since then, I realized that writing is not for me. Oopps... my first entry should not be about frustrations..haha but rather surrendering. It seems that both were negative. But what I meant here is surrendering to God. To His CALL. To His PLAN. To His WILL. It's like raising the white flag in a battle. So because its the first month of the year, my first step is to raise my white flag to God. My white flag represents my plans in life and my future. I don't know what might happen to me on the future but one thing is for sure.. I have a God that is faithful and all-knowing. Raising white flag doesn't mean your weak or your resigning but instead you have a willingness to accept what God sends with open hands. And you keep on trusting Him to drive the wheels of your life.

Here's the lyrics of the song "Trust His Heart" and may we always be reminded to trust His heart.

All things work for the good

Though sometimes we can't

See how they could

Struggles that break our hearts in two

Sometimes blind us to the truth

Our Father knows what's best for us

His ways are not our own

So when your pathway grows dim

And you just can't see him,

Remember He's still on the throne

God is too wise to be mistaken

God is too good to be unkind

So when you don't understands and

When you don't see his plan

When you can't trace his hand

Trust His Heart

He sees the master plan

He holds the future in his hand,

Don't live as those who have no hope,

While our hope is found in him.

We see the present clearly

But he sees the first and last

And like a tapestry He's weaving you and me,

To someday be just like him

He alone is faithful and true

He alone knows what is best for you.

And here's a verse to remember:

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

-Jeremiah 29:11

Some people said that writing is a form of schizophrenia.(schizophrenia is a mental disorder)

But let me assure you that I'm not schizophrenic but a believer in Christ and still under God's construction.



How about you? Is there's any white flag in your life?

Pause.Think.
Pray about it.
Trust His heart.