the termination experience

Unexpected.Unnotified.Unexplainable.

Grabeeee… kakaiba talaga pinagdaanan ko last week. I’ll give you a brief flashback. Here it goes:

I didn’t expect that March 31, 2010 will be my last day of duty at AGH. It was really a mind-boggling experience for me. I still have a schedule for the month of April last March 29, 2010. Then I don’t know why on the next day I can’t find my name on the schedule. It was changed.
I was terminated.

In tagalong-natanggal,dinispatya,pinatalsik.. And what made my heart sank was the fact that I’m not aware what was my mistake. I went home with a heavy heart but God impressed me with three verses on my devotion and it was very timely.

“The person who loves God is the one God knows and cares for."

-1 Corinthians 8:3

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”

-1 Peter 5:7

"You need to remain calm; the Lord will fight for you."

-Ex. 14:14

Then I wrote my resignation letter, I cried. Before the ink can reach the white paper, tears keep falling from my eyes.

Even if you've fallen, even if you've failed, even if everyone else has rejected you, Christ will not turn away from you. :)

Then I headed for my last duty. I received words of encouragement and support from my colleagues. We reminisced the good old duty days and what they heard why all of a sudden I’m out of the list. My colleagues have no complaints against me and that’s why I really can’t understand why all of a sudden I was removed. “They owe you an explanation!!!” as one resident doctor said. He adds, “kaya nga ako tumagal dito kasi sa samahan..” Exactly! That was also my reason why I stayed. I will always treasure the memories and the friendship I have found.

I thanked God for this heart-warming message from my sister:

sissy..take heart..baka your getting comfortable na sa kasi sa AGH..eh iba n plans sa iyo ng Lord..di ba we are praying for better opportunity for you...I'm thinking baka possible yan na ang answer ng Lord...pra mas magsipag ka na to look for a new job..Ung mga friends mo naman will still be there for u kahit ala ka na sa AGH..diba friends for keeps sila..diba sabi...all things work for the best for those who love Christ ;)

I got a phone call from my head nurse. I asked for the primary reason then she answered “hindi ka kasi feel ni ****!” Ang babaw ng reason, right? My head nurse can’t do anything because it’s the management’s decision. But it’s not important to me anymore for God allowed this to happen because He has a purpose. I think it’s better left unsaid. I was also reminded by the bible character named Joseph the dreamer.
He experienced persecutions from his own brothers but he ended up victorious. For the complete story, read Genesis Chapter 37 onwards. His story was very inspiring that we must cling to our faith in all circumstances of our life. Like Joseph, we can also dream great dreams and live up to our fullest potential. The whole termination experience showed me how faithful God is. I thank God for His word
 and He also used people to encourage me. :)

I cried. I prayed. I forgave.

Bless those who persecute you; bless, and don’t curse.

-Romans 12:14

Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord.

-Romans 12:19

I’m sOooooo excited to the next mission field that God will assign for me. Praise God! :)